listen to my woe god

well i guess it is woma'ns nature --to want to be cherished and loved. i m blessed cos i have god and a caring family. i do wish i feel more cherished by him.

now i am only a friend to him, who keeps him company when he has nothing to do, to take care of the kids, to run the household.

in the bible book of solomon, the groom uses words like 'apple of my eye' and 'lilies of the vally' -special flowers. how i wish i can this special in somebody's eyes but no, i am not.

but i am in god's eyes. jesus has made me feel very special and loved. he gives me rainbows on my birthday, he gives me a job when i did not even dream of it. he listens to my little prayers for car park lots, dresses and swim suits.

when i talk to him, god listens and answers. but when i talk to him about my desires, he put it one side and he makes false promises.

i am very upset with it jesus. what i need he does not try to provide. he only provides with money. what about some of my needs like a fan? i have not recieved flowers for ages and i asked for it...... and no , it does not come.

i am upset cos his needs i meet - his daily life, what he likes i try get for him.

but for him, he thinks only about the monetary. he pays only the bills.

a woman needs to be cherished. i thank jesus for cherishing me. you even gave me a name rachael, when i asked for it.

thank god of your love and cherishing. i wish there can be semblance of this on earth.

amen

my prayer

ai yoh, i don't understand what is revealation and zechariah talking about. all the visions mentioned there are very hazy to me. does anyone want to explain them to me?

well let me pray then.

dear god, i love me. please teach and help me to develope my spiritual disciplines in my daily life. teach me to read your word, pray to you , worship and share your testimony daily. let them be strengthened in my life.

dear lord, school is reopening soon. i pray for myself, that you would honour my work so that your name could be exalted. i pray that you will bless the work of my hands, enable my students to score well for their exams, esp the graduating class. lord, bless me with your inspiration and wisdom to educate the youths. enable me dear jesus, not only to help them excel in exams but also to pass on to them the love of the lord and people. may your fragrance enter every classroom that i go to.

you have placed me there for a purpose. as esther fulfuills her purpose, let me fulfill mine too. you have placed many people in my path. let these people see the light of christ in me. not by my might or power, but by your spirit dear jesus.

jesus i pray for josef that you may bless him with a love for learning. help him to find joy in learning and i pray that you will bless him with teachers who will make learning fun and interesting for him. bless his time in school. may he find fulfillment in his studies and CCA.

He desires to represent school for chess. bless him with the wisdom to play the game. bring people into his life who can sharpen his skills.

lord if it is your good will for him to be among the top 80 students at his level, bless and enable him to be among the top. lord jesus, i claim your promise to us that you will make us among the best, never at the bottom. yet not my will but yours be done. amen.

lord, i always think the gep is good for him. if you think this is best for him, i pray that you put him there too.

guide me dear jesus, as to what is best for him. i am concerned that he may have too many activities next year, esp thurs when he has swimming and music. guide me to plan this little boy's schedule for him. thank you.

dear lord, thank you for little deborah's thoughtfulness and independent nature. i pray that you will draw this litle girl to you. cause her to fall deeply in love with you and learn to lean on jesus for all she needs. let her be consumed with the pursuit with jesus.

use her independence for your purpose dear jesus. let not it cause her to stray afar from you. may her spirit always yield to you.

bless her time in school dear jesus. i dun know why she has been crying recently but i pray that you will replace the tears with joy and smiles.

dear lord jesus i pray for ernest that he will lean on you and not on your strength. teach me to rely on you and truly let you be his ceo. bless the work of his hands jesus and let him use it for your purpose and glory.

dear jesus am i talking too much? teach me to listen to you.... and josef too.... teach him to listen to you

bless my parents and dad in law with good health. draw them close to you. amen.

hello

"not by might nor by power but by my spirit says the lord."

god i pray that your spirit will work mightily in my ilfe. your spirit is wisdom and strength. your spriit gives discernment and judgement. it is everything that i need.

god let your spirit empower me to know you more in my life. let him help me develope spiritual disciplines in my life.

o god let your spirit teach me intercede for my loved ones.

guard them o holy spirit.

"whoever worships the beast and receives the mark on his forehead will receive the full wrath of god"

who is the beast? what is the beast? may the spirit tell me when the time is here. may god protect my descendents from this beast too. o that they may live with god and not incur his wrath.

god keep josef and ernest for your good puposes. fill their hearts and minds with your righteousness and purity. let them not be tempted by lust for power and money and women. let them be consumed by the pursuit of god and your righteousness.

may your joy fill their lives. may they be driven by your purpose. protect their minds and help them to meditate on your word.

jesus i pray that deborah will learn to depend on you and not her own strength. let her spirit be always sumbitted to you. let her be guided by you.

use deborah to pioneer new ministries in your name and power. amen.

guard this family. let your love and glory shine throught and your name be exalted here.

come holy spirit and dwell in our household.

in jesus precious name. amen

LEssons from daniel

the main lesson i learnt today is about humility. daniel rejected the king's offer of title and jewel.

he carries out his interpretation of the dream well. He does not look out for reward from men.

the lord detests pride in our hearts. this can be seen from the way he dealt with Nebu and his son. He struck them down after they refused to honour god.

how can we honour god? i think in our hearts, we always give thanks to god what all that we have "acheived" and acknowledged that without god , we are nothing.

i think also in all that we do, we do to the best of our ability, believing that our work gives glory to god.

though i have not blog since 16 nov, i have been talking to god about many things close to my heart. but i must read God's word more to hear him speaking to me from the word of life.

today i read about nebuzhenazar's attitude towards himself and god. nebu's has a self-glorifying attitude and he credits all his achievements to himself. this displeases god a lot and god sent him out of the kingdom and into the wilderness.

it was only after nebu declared god's glory and power that the kingdom was restored to him.

i learnt from this that god loves us to give glory to him. Not that he is a boastful god, but he is a jealous god who wants us to be totally his. When we give him glory, our hearts are his too. i think this is why he wants the heart which glorifies him.

anyway all creation is already shouting his praises and glorifying him, he does not need our "achievements" but he does want our hearts.